I Think You're Craaazzyy, I Think You're Crazy, Just Like Me...
sign by my house
What I am listening to: Gnarl's Barkley- makes you cry its just that good (Forget what Amazon says about it being available on May 9th- you can get it on iTunes right now)
What I am watching: Graffitti Bridge- horrible but apparently I will watch anything with Prince in it- I'm sick I know
What I am reading: Please Kill Me- still cause I lost it for a minute
What I am thinking: I am glad that my brother doesn't have to have surgery and how many funerals have I been to in these past couple of years. My step-dad's step-dad passed away yesterday.
What I am doing: painting my shelf for the 3rd time (the white had to go) and drawing a brahma bull to put on a gold clutch- you know you want it.
I don't know if posting this online is right but I am not good with dealing with emotions so I guess it is better than nothing. I thought about it because you mentioned how many funerals you have been to and I know how much they hurt now. But last night was the first night I dreamt about grandma and it wasn't a nightmare. That sounds bad but it's true. It wasn't the happiest dream but it wasn't scary either and there were parts where she was being funny. It made me want to hug her though which made me sad, but then it gave me hope that I will forget (or at least come to terms with) the brief moment at the end that was horrible and remember all the years of happy memories before.
I don't know why I am writing this here but it makes me feel better. Can we play this summer? I want to come stay with you and Lauren as much as I can if that is okay.
Hey Meghan-
I am glad you posted this. I would give anything to turn back time so that I could have been there for you. But it is what it is and we can't change it- try as I might. Honestly, the only thing that has helped me over the years has been to work hard and play hard- I guess do everything hard. Lets do that this Summer. Lauren and I want you to come over as much as possible and kick it. Lets not forget we are going to have a Ring of Fire!
Love you-