Yes, I've Got Many Rivers To Cross, And I Merely Survive Because Of My Will...
LA
I have been away awhile. I know. My grandma passed away. The one I live with. The one I lived with. I flew Friday the 6th to Chicago and got a phone call from my mom on Saturday morning- the 7th. She was gone. I got on the earliest plane possible on a busy Saturday, which was 7pm and was delayed and delayed until I got into Orange County at 11 pm. And its been a whirlwind ever since.
I was in my own bed last night for the first time in a couple of weeks and that felt good. I had a little talk with my grandma. I told her that I was proud of her, that I loved her and that I was glad that she was happy. I hope she tells my dad that I love him and miss him.
I have no regrets with my grandma- only that I wish I had been there on Saturday morning. She had a long and full life. She was ready. But I am selfish still- I miss her and wish she was here. But this time around- its a little easier. I can be happy for her and thats a good feeling.
HOLA MISS JACKIE
I too have no regrets for the last 8 years , since WE got her back . I remember alot before that , but the last 8 have been great !!! I tried to do more with her and for her , i feel really good about that time ! But i too should have and could of been there on saturday , if i didn't have to work so late on friday . But if i had to give my laker ticket to some one i'm so glad that it was GRANDMA (MOM ) . Lauren thanks for the ticket . It sounds like you -meg - robin and mom had the best time . WOW i never stop to think and now i wish i was there .
I don't think this has totally hit me yet , because i'm feelling a little bit every day . I miss my 7:30am phone call in the morning , hola mom - que pasa - i just finished walking jazz and robin should be here soon with bella and gonna make breakfeast , and you ? off to work ? Yup . How are you ? Good i'm gonna do this gonna do that . OK mom have fun . Then she told me that she LOVED ME , and i said ok mom . that's it ok mom . So i'll say it now through you jackie I LOVE YOU MOM ....
Jackie i'm with you on being selfish , i miss my mom and you miss your dad . Truth is I MISS THEM BOTH .
YOUR TIO GRANDMA MIJO RON
P S Thank you to my sisters liz & gloria and my cousin hellen for making my mom look so beautiful
Yes, me too Jaclyn. So far there hasn't been a day that I wake up and think I gotta call mom and see what she's up to. Yes, I am selfish and I miss her soo much. Then I think back on these last years, how much she accomplished and how far she came - She enjoyed her family, she traveled, she saw weddings and a great grandchild, college graduations, and many more tortillas were rolled and mealed prepared and kitchens cleaned. And - more importantly, we were loved and shown how to love by a great woman whose shoes I can never fill - but I will die trying to make her proud.
Hey Jackie,
it's not just you, we all loved her and I'm selfish too, I'm gonna miss that salsa she made.
Rest in Peace Grandma.