May Angels Lead You In, Hear You Me My Friends...

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This Jimmy Eat World song, which is funny because I don't normally listen to them, has been playing over and over in my mind this weekend. I believe firmly in angels. Angels that live on earth, angels that look down from above and angels that are biding their time to a better place. I may never know for sure, but I believe that angels look after me every day.

These angels watched and held my hand as I gave my dad's eulogy- I have never been a public speaker- but I wasn't nervous or afraid that day, as I held my mom's hand in the hospital while she tried to breathe, and as my grandma was sick and not expected to live, and in that moment that I realized my life would never be the same. They weep with me and smile when I do. They watch out for me and those who I am connected to.

I never realized how important that belief is to me until recently. I am doing a very large painting that seems not to get started because of the sheer size of it. I had several ideas for this giant canvas but the only thing that stuck was the angels. Angels crying, watching, dying, living, struggling and being. I want to express those feelings and beliefs into an all encompassing statement. Cause it seems to me that most people are angels to others once in awhile... So I leave you with the lyrics of Hear You Me- Jimmy Eat World.

There's no one in town I know
You gave us some place to go.
I never said thank you for that.
I thought I might get one more chance.
What would you think of me now,
so lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that,
now I'll never have a chance.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.
So what would you think of me now,
so lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that,
now I'll never have a chance.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.
May angels lead you in.
May angels lead you in.
And if you were with me tonight,
I'd sing to you just one more time.
A song for a heart so big,
god wouldn't let it live.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.
May angels lead you in.