Cause You Walking Out Here Breathing Is Insane...

seattle, wa

I am out of my house now while they are redoing my grandma's kitchen. I am staying at my mom's house and its weird. Not weird in a bad way- just funny cause I haven't lived there since I graduated from high school. Its much nicer this way I must admit. I am older, wiser I would say. I have changed my views on a lot of things and even though I am often outspoken, I think that I wait longer before I speak now. I am more likely to pick my battles and not wage all out wars for a couple of mispoken words.

I was thinking that being a teenager is a rollercoaster ride of sorts. Everything is magnified to the ultimate degree. I wasn't just mad, I was angry, irrate etc., which is not to say that I didn't have reason to be. It just takes a lot of energy to be angry all of the time. I was angry at the "snotty" area that we lived in, angry at school cause they didn't protect minorities like I thought they should, angry at my tumultous home life and angry because there seemed to be no solutions beside getting out of there as soon as possible.

The thing that has saved me is my art. Painting takes away my tension- you should see some of the angry paintings I have done. I guess in life you have to have an outlet. It definitely helps. Otherwise you can get bogged down with all of the negativity that life brings. Just remembering today...