June 2005 Archives

I shall end this mini-pride week with one more colorful photo. Hope everyone has a good holiday weekend. I will get some new pictures up on Tuesday or so.

More Pride pictures for you guys. It was nice to see so many different people come together for a happy occasion. The arrival of the dykes on bikes brought tears to my sister and mine eyes- silly I know. It was just really nice to see everyone so accepting of people- it was as it should be every day- but you know that isn't always the case.

Part of the Samoan float

Latino Flags...

A great message for everyone

Ah the leather men of Miller...

The actual Samoan float

Mikes on Bikes as opposed to dykes on bikes

For some reason this guy kept going to each side of the spectators and making this funny face....

My sister and I are back from Pride and I have so many pictures to post. Everything is crazy colorful and who doesn't love that. So in honor of Pride I have decided to post a week full of Pride photos. This post however has way too many photos- I couldn't even begin to narrow them down- so this is a big one.

So yeah I know I promised to write more in June. Apparently I am a just a liar (admitting it is the hardest part) and honestly I am ok with that. Nah, for reals I have been living at my mom's house and with one computer for the whole family it is more difficult to write. So lets just say that I promise to write more when I am back in my house and my own room.

I am off this weekend to the land of San Jose to visit my brother and his girlfriend. And to see Dykes on Bikes in the Pride Parade in San Francisco... Yay I'm so happy. I love dykes on bikes. Watching them on their loud ass motorcycles always makes me wish I was one- so needless to say I am very excited. Plus I am picking my sister up in a couple of hours so that we can drive up there tonight. Who doesn't like a music filled road trip!!! There are just so many good cds out right now...

Oh and by the way- my sister and I are starting a new clothing line that is in deperate need of a new website- does anyone know of a good web designer that is willing to work with some girls who know what they want but not how to do it?
Thanks....

HAPPY PRIDE to all... and have a good weekend- (I know I will) and I hope to post pictures from our little adventure....

seattle, wa

I am out of my house now while they are redoing my grandma's kitchen. I am staying at my mom's house and its weird. Not weird in a bad way- just funny cause I haven't lived there since I graduated from high school. Its much nicer this way I must admit. I am older, wiser I would say. I have changed my views on a lot of things and even though I am often outspoken, I think that I wait longer before I speak now. I am more likely to pick my battles and not wage all out wars for a couple of mispoken words.

I was thinking that being a teenager is a rollercoaster ride of sorts. Everything is magnified to the ultimate degree. I wasn't just mad, I was angry, irrate etc., which is not to say that I didn't have reason to be. It just takes a lot of energy to be angry all of the time. I was angry at the "snotty" area that we lived in, angry at school cause they didn't protect minorities like I thought they should, angry at my tumultous home life and angry because there seemed to be no solutions beside getting out of there as soon as possible.

The thing that has saved me is my art. Painting takes away my tension- you should see some of the angry paintings I have done. I guess in life you have to have an outlet. It definitely helps. Otherwise you can get bogged down with all of the negativity that life brings. Just remembering today...

I am not one to be worried about what celebrities are doing and with whom they are doing it. But something has to be done about this Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes thing. You want to be in love thats cool- but these two are honestly making me ill. I'm not even going to go there with the whole Oprah episode and Tom's weird getting on one knee thing. Lets just say that it seems very surreal and it couldn't possibly be because they both have movies coming out. Come on people, don't be crazy- they are for reals in love- lol. Free Katie is all I have to say. Apparently some people have realized the madness that is this weird publicity stunt too. Check out Free Katie- get a shirt, do your part...

laguna sunrise

This Jimmy Eat World song, which is funny because I don't normally listen to them, has been playing over and over in my mind this weekend. I believe firmly in angels. Angels that live on earth, angels that look down from above and angels that are biding their time to a better place. I may never know for sure, but I believe that angels look after me every day.

These angels watched and held my hand as I gave my dad's eulogy- I have never been a public speaker- but I wasn't nervous or afraid that day, as I held my mom's hand in the hospital while she tried to breathe, and as my grandma was sick and not expected to live, and in that moment that I realized my life would never be the same. They weep with me and smile when I do. They watch out for me and those who I am connected to.

I never realized how important that belief is to me until recently. I am doing a very large painting that seems not to get started because of the sheer size of it. I had several ideas for this giant canvas but the only thing that stuck was the angels. Angels crying, watching, dying, living, struggling and being. I want to express those feelings and beliefs into an all encompassing statement. Cause it seems to me that most people are angels to others once in awhile... So I leave you with the lyrics of Hear You Me- Jimmy Eat World.

There's no one in town I know
You gave us some place to go.
I never said thank you for that.
I thought I might get one more chance.
What would you think of me now,
so lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that,
now I'll never have a chance.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.
So what would you think of me now,
so lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that,
now I'll never have a chance.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.
May angels lead you in.
May angels lead you in.
And if you were with me tonight,
I'd sing to you just one more time.
A song for a heart so big,
god wouldn't let it live.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.
May angels lead you in.

My cousin, sister and I saw two movies on Friday both of which were very good. First we saw Lords of Dogtown, which was good. For those who haven't seen the previews that have been making residence on all the tv channels, it is about the original Z boys who revolutionized skateboarding in Venice, CA. I would think that you should see this movie if not for anything but the false teeth that Heath Ledger rocks for his characterization of Skip- the quasi-father figure. Upon viewing the actual documentary that came out before the movie- we realized that he wasn't exaggerating- the guy actually spoke like that. Besides weird teeth, the Venice scenes were beautifully shot and the young actors are tight.

Next we saw Crash- which I had been wanting to see for some time. In hindsight I would have rather seen this movie first- cause its not for the weak. I think I cried three or four times in this movie. Blatant racism (lets be honest- any racism) usually angers me- but this more than simple racism- it was rampant and I felt the rage that I had in high school when I was a more militant minority. I don't want to really explain anymore of the plot of the movie. You should just go and see it. This film definitely makes you feel. It makes you feel uncomfortable, angry, worry, relief and hopefully a little educated if not sad. But I promise that its worth it.