When I Have Kids, I Won't Put Any Chains on Their Wrists, I Won't...

Negative people try to sting me with their comments again. And I am here trying to make sense of it (yet again). Then again its silly to try to figure out why people can't be supportive and why I continue to try with people who are into the "you ain't shit philosophy."

For those of you who have never heard of this negative type of re-enforcement-let me explain. "You ain't shit" means "you aren't anything special, you won't amount to anything, and who cares if you are sucessful cause you'll never be anything to me." Its verbal equivalent of the sad image of a bucket full of crabs- here you are trying to get out and you can't because your bucket-mates want to keep you down in the bucket with them (true story, I watch Animal Planet). So that you suffer the same fate as them. You don't make it and it makes them feel better cause they were right "YOU AIN'T SHIT"- see it hurts...

I have learned firsthand that this attitude which in best terms is supposed to keep you humble, is nothing other than jealous people trying to keep you down. Interestingly enough this mentatlity works- I used to think that I had no talent in anything because every time that I achieved something worth merit, I was told in simple terms "so, you still ain't shit."

It has only been recently that I have realized that maybe I am somebody. Maybe this is a given in most people's lives, but negativity had been drilled into me for so long, that it is only now that I truly believe that I am worth something. This is not to sadden anyone- its just the truth.

So to all those people out there (and if you are honest with yourself- you know its wrong) who keep trying to reel me in with plastic smiles, only to hit me with the "you ain't shit" attitude- I have news for you. I don't want or need you. So get over it and consider me a lost cause- I refuse to keep my head down in submission anymore. I am finally happy and I suggest you try to be the same. And with that I'm out... Suckas!!!! (yea, that is a little childish, but then again so is making a little kid feel bad cause they dare to dream of something bigger).....