Bring It Back Sweet Memory...
I had a panic attack yesterday brought on by nothing but my crazy self. I felt a rush of panic sweep over me as I accused myself of being too old to be doing secretarial work- when it is not what I want to be doing, not starting things that I want to do, having a degree in psychology that I have no intention of using, and not having a solid plan for my future.
All of which is very silly because I am twenty-three, an age where I can figure out what I want to do with my life. I have decided that the one thing that makes me utterly happy is to paint and so I vow to update this website with new artwork. I am also interested in going into business for myself- which I am going to be pursuing. But no one starts out at the top and how many artists have had day jobs while they work when they get a chance on their true passion. As for psychology, after the year of my dad's death and other issues, I have decided that I would get too emotionally involved in any type of psychology right now. And I actually didn't like the way it played into our government system. Not that people don't get helped- I just realized that it was not for me. And I am ok with this now.
I have realized that I may never be a millionare (unless the lotto comes into play) but I never thought I would be. I give things too easily (money... Why does it have to be like that?). My only hopes are to be happy (and I think I am), to be pleased with my creations and to leave my artistic mark on the world.
Exhale.....
Everything is going to be all right.....
WHO-YA MISS JACKIE
Who needs to be a MILLIONARE to be happy, not me there are a lot more things i'd rather have then that. Hummm like faith-truth-honesty things that money could never get you and more. I am so happy and proud that you can EXHALE and say it and also know your gonna be all right !!! But please let me know when your gonna exhale........ again , so we can exhale togethere . I'll bring the corona's you bring the limes !!
UNCLE RON
The reality is that you do have a plan, you are using and will use your psychology degree and you do start things you want to do. Your plan is in the works - sometimes we only see the backside of a tapestry - have you ever seen the back of it? It's a mess of tangled yarns and threads - the mess is the work you go through to get the vision on the other side - it's a beautiful work of art. You are using your psychology degree every day in self-reflection either in your work as an artist or here on this blog and you will use it when you have your own business - either with your customers or your employees. You will be successful - because you care so much, give so much, and are so willing to work hard to achieve. You have so much more going for you than I did when I was your age. and as for the lotto - well, that's up to you and grandma - but - I have a feeling that one day that may happen too! Keep your chin up - you are a work in progress - and you really are progressing! I am proud of you!!!! Love Mom
It's the quarter life crisis sweeping up!!!!!! It's hitting me like a ton a bricks since uh hem a certain day which means that I am another year older is creeping up! I think it's very normal to feel the way you are. I know I do! Every other day my thoughts run rapid and I wonder what the hell I am doing. What makes it easier is to take a deep breathe do your exhaling shoop shoop and take a step forward. I think that we tend to forget that as we grow older and we start changing so do our wants and needs. Remember with time everything always turns out ok. That and some lotto tickets!!!