Nothing's Going to Change My World....

So maybe that's not true. The dreaded election did change my world. In fact, yesterday my world was turned upside down. I felt like the world had ended and I wasn't sure what to do. I am still not sure what to do now- but I know that life goes on and you have to make the best of it. I guess what irks me the most (oh ok one of the things that irks me the most) is that the news keep saying that America's morality won out over the liberals. Does that mean that half of Americans believed that Bush was actually more moral than Kerry. But then if morality= killing young men and women in a fruitless war, then sign me up for immorality. I am already goign to hell according to those who choose morals anyways.

I'm worried for our country and saddened more than anything. I am mostly sorry about how many states reacted to gay marriage. Yesterday morning I felt like weeping for all the gay couples who must have been waiting to see if they would get the same rights as straight people. I am not in a relationship now, but it would be nice to know that if I wanted to and if I loved someone enough- that I could get married. Sad that I may go through most or all of my life being denied something that should be a joyous celebration.

I was talking to my cousin the other day, and she said "can't they see that they are repeating the same mistakes that made it necessary for the civil rights movement." Which is so true. Why is it still ok for the government to hate and discriminate. That's what hurts the most. I am always aware that I am a minority and so have to deal with discrimination. But I always felt equal or at least ready to fight for my place that is rightfully mine- but in this case not even the constitution backs me up and it will be a fight just to receive the same basic right that the majority has.

But then again, tommorow is another day and I vow to regain my hope soon- I think for now its hiding under my bed....