September 2004 Archives

Sorry about my inability to blog this week. I haven't done or thought of anything significant lately. I think I am having one of those weeks where everything goes really quickly. I was very excited for Tuesday to come because I thought that I would be making a trip to Target that would yield The Rock's Walking Tall and Talib Kweli's Beautiful Struggle. And I did go to Target and I bought Walking Tall but alas there was no Beautiful Struggle. I was very disappointed. Hopefully tonight I can make a trip to Tower Records to get the cd. I'm sure that I will like it. He is one of the people that I am always happy to listen to.

On another note- I had pimp juice this weekend and it was really funny. For those of you who aren't familiar with Pimp Juice it is kind of like Red Bull. Except it is way better cause it is bright green and it tastes like apple juice with a twist and it doesn't make you crash like Red Bull or other energy drinks do. Plus- it makes you really really hyper, which is funny that I drank it cause I am already a little hyper and Pimp Juice just amplified it. Definitely a drink that I could have used when I was in school, writing papers at three in the morning. I feel like a Pimp Juice pusher now. I really liked it- but I don' think that it is good for me (or the rest of the people that have to interact with me) all the time. I think that I will just use it as a secret weapon once in awhile. "Pimp Juice is incredible"- (sorry, that was coffee talking not Pimp Juice)

This weekend was chill. I got to go to Ikea, hang out with some friends, and go to various fabric stores. So all in all not a bad weekend. I am still trying to get some reading in but I am finding it hard to cut off from reading time to work or get ready time (who knows why it takes me so long?) Actually I know why it takes me so long- I pause thats why. I get easily distracted by the tv, the radio and various other forms of entertainment. I really need to learn to focus.

Speaking of focusing, I am in the middle of selecting projects to make for a whole bunch of people for Christmas. Yes, I realize that it is only September, but I have a huge family and this may literally take me FOR-EV-ER. So I am going to be really busy- but that sounds good to me. I am hoping to get a lot done before the holiday season hits so that I can share my stuff with everyone. That way if you want to give one as a gift- it will be all ready.....

Miscellaneous weekend facts (or whatever you want to call them)-

Saw Sassy Girl- A Korean movie and this girl is not just sassy- she is mean as hell but it was still a really good movie

I missed my friends from my 1st college- Antrice, Liz (Chapo), Elyssa, Kin, Heidy and Moe of course- we had a good time

I have come to the realization that I have nothing relevant to write about today. I have started and deleted this entry at least six times already and now have decided that I am having a bad blog day. So sorry about that. Instead of writing- I am going to leave you with one of my signature lists.

Things I have been feeling recently...

1. Tweed fabric in a variety of colors for a project that should be coming soon.

10. My Mio camera (Mio and I were fighting for a minute but we are good now and due to this change in attitude you may be seeing more pictures on my blog).

11. New books (I just went to the bookstore): Che Guevara- John Lee Anderson; Always Running- Luis J. Rodriguez; and Down These Mean Streets- Piri Thomas.

I'm off to read.......

So these are the photos of the mural I painted this weekend. I took them with my Mio Polaroid camera. So they aren't that great- but they are business card size in real life. Besides the picture comes from the top of the camera- something that intrigues me every time. I'm not quite done with the brick and graffitti wall but when I am I will post the picture.

On another note- last night felt like fall. And I was teased for a minute, which sucks because I am so tired of summer. And I am really not feeling Santa Ana winds. So instead of Fall- we get fire season. Good times.... Hopefully it will pass soon and then we can wear sweaters, jeans and tennis shoes. Speaking of which, I need new tennis shoes. I used to have millions of pairs but I have slowly weeded them out and now I only have 2 pairs. Amazing I know. I was thinking as soon as there is another cool, breezy day then I will head to the store and buy some new K-Swiss. "I wear my K-Swiss"

I was very ambitious this weekend. By Friday morning I had decided that I was going to paint my room. Big deal, right?- not for me because I think I have been watching the Home and Garden channel too much (so you know I thought I could do a whole room makeover in a day). I painted my bedroom a bold blueish-perriwinkle color called Seabury. And then I decided to do a mural on the wall above my closet. Its a very surreal image but then again I always do surreal paintings. Its of a woman, who kind of represents the sky or the infinite beyond or god if you want- whatever you'd rather. She is above purple mountains and then below are a cluster of buildings.

I'm really happy with my room- I need color in my life and the white walls were bringing me down. So now I have no excuse not to be inspired to do my artwork. Too bad I'm not quite done yet- I'm going to paint a brick wall with graffitti on it. You know how I do- I seem to make things more complicated than they have to be. But at least I am happy with the results. Hopefully I will be able to post a picture tommorow. For now I am going to get some much needed sleep....

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I have always been the non-affectionate girl. I don't play games in relationships and I only hug and kiss when I really mean it. I just have never been a touchy-feely type of person. I am more likely to express my feelings with words or by doing something nice for someone. I appreciate the same sentiments in love songs as well. I hate (loathe, abhor etc) sappy love songs (On the Wings of Love actually makes me ill). Strong words you might think- yeah I guess they are (but then again you know how I am about music).

I enjoy songs that delve deeper into the feeling of love and the details of it. I don't want a sweeping generalization of false promises. I want the whole thing. If I say I love you then I would fight for you, climb a mountain or stay with you when you are hurting and just need to be heard. Love to me means all of these things.

Extreme? Definitely. But because I feel this way and act this way I expect better than "Love songs along the Coast" songs. So I have made a short list of love songs that are better at expressing love (at least I think so anyway):

1. I Build This Garden For Us- Lenny Kravitz- Let Love Rule

We'll close the gates and lock the door
Our love will never fade away
When it's pure it forever last
And darling when you're cold
I'll hold you tight and keep you warm
Little darlin' gonna make it through the storm
You'll never be

2. Mind Sex- Dead Prez- Lets Get Free alone

Wait, let me guess boo, you probably like poetry
Here’s a little something I jotted down in case I spotted you around
So let me take this opportunity
Would you share a moment with me, over herbal tea?
Take a walk verbally, make a bond certaintly
Cuz in my hand I bet your hand fit perfectly
And it’s like we floatin out in space when you flirtin wit me

3. To Know You- Gift of Gab

Truly I really want to really, deeply get to know you...

I see the other half of me in your eyes...

These three are my favorite. There are a few more but it would take me forever to remember right now. So if you would like to hear these songs- let me know, I'll send you a mixed CD. You'll like it, for reals.....

I am in love with iTunes. I think I may be a little obsessed, ok a lot. This crazy obsession bothers me throughout the day and makes me write down random songs that I haven't heard in years. Then when I get home I check to see if I can buy them on iTunes. Just what I need another way to buy music that I can't afford. Hmmm.... but then why do I look foward to going home so that I can see what iTunes has?

To be honest, I have musicbuyiticus, which is a rare disease that preys on the weak. Be aware if you exhibit these symptoms that leave you with no cash. Do you try to walk past a music store and before you know it you are in line for the cash register with three CDs in your hand and you have no idea how you got there? Do you have a running list of 100 or so CDs that you have to have and you have tried to pare down the list several times but it never works? Do you try to ignore music buying situations and urges only to break down when you are by yourself with no support group? If you display any of these symptoms- then sorry, but you've got it. Only get iTunes when you are sure you can handle it... In my case- its too late.

I was thinking today that dang it is already the middle of September. Pretty soon it will be Halloween and then Thansgiving and then Christmas (apparently retail stores start thinking this as soon as June- but whatever) I realize that as I get older- the time goes quicker and things meld together readily.

When I was in school, dates were clearly defined as deadlines. This date was when a project was due, this date was the beginning of the year and so on. I dont have so much defined time any more. I have time that I schedule and instead of doing things when I am supposed to, I make time for the things that I want to do or have to be done. But with that freedon comes the realization that my time is definitely more valuable now. You have to make things happen cause they things don't just spontaneously happen because you hope they will.

So my lesson today (brought to you by the letter P and number 8- Sesame Street reference to those who are confused) is that I am in charge of what I do and when I do it. It may seem obvious to you who have been at this for awhile. But I am still getting used to calling the shots. I have been to used to doing things because I felt a strong sense of obligation. But I have begun to feel that lessen and I hope to come to a happy medium one of these days. One of the many goals that I am sure will fall into place once I forget to worry about the unimportant details of life.

Fridays are great, Mondays suck and Sundays are bittersweet. Bittersweet because its the end of the weekend- the next day is back to business and the the start of the work week. But I have to admit that I love Sunday mornings. Sunday morning brings the Sunday paper full of house guides (I love to pretend that I am going to buy an estate), the funny papers (my dad and I never called them the comics like normal people), and best of all the Sunday ads.

Most people throw the ads aways as they are the equivalent of spam on the internet. But not me- I throw the rest of the paper in the recycling bin (grandma and I are avid recyclers). Why? Cause I know that if there was any worthy news, I could get it online- where I don't have to fold and refold the paper- lazy, yeah just a tad.

My dad and I loved all of the ads but we always fought the Target ad. The Target one was special- we would keep on the coffee table for the whole week and look at it every time we watched tv. Something about the way things were presented made an impression on us. Yes, it is crazy silly and unimportant- but for some reason I love to look at it over and over again. I can hardly explain the obsession. Sad I know.

But here I am again- Sunday evening cutting out pictures of sushi for a new coffee table that I am making and the damn Target ad is on the foot of my bed so that I can look at it for the umpteenth time. Maye Target has some interesting mind control ploys in the weekly ad- either that or I am weirder than I thought. Just some random, rambling thoughts for you all.

Song of the Day: Hanging on the Telephone- Blondie

I was reading this girl's blog and she had written an ABC survey from someone else. So here are my answers.... I promise to blog more next week.

A - Age: 23
B - Bands listening to right now: The Streets, The Shins, the rest of the people that I listen to aren't bands but I'll listen to them anyway- Gift of Gab, Madlib
C - Career of the future: Boutique owner/artist
D - Dad's Name: Ramon
E - Ethnic Background: Mexican, Native American, Spanish etc.
F - Favorite song at the moment: "To Know You"- Gift of Gab
G - Great escape: art supply stores, music stores, and coffee houses- even though I don't drink coffee (chai tea is good though), swap meets etc...
H - Hometown: Orange County California
I - Instrument: Not a dang thing- except I did play the flute when I was younger- and I like to pretend I can play the guitar but I only know three songs
J - Job Title: Receptionist/Secretary
K - Kids: None. Thank God. Unless you count Jazz, my cocker spaniel
L - Last person you talked to on the phone: Moe Moe
M - Mom's Name: Liz
N - Number of Siblings: 4- Gabriel, Micah, Lauren and Andrew
O - Oldest Sibling: Gabriel
P - Phobia[s] / Fear[s]: the mean geese at the park (they are scary for reals)and slimey things like slugs
Q - Favorite Quote: Ah there are so many. "I am guided by a force much greater than luck"
R - Favorite Reads- My favorite book is probably Rabbit Boss- Prof Huerta had us read this for a class and I have felt it ever since.
S - Song you sang last: "Fit But You Know It"- The Streets
T - Time you wake: 7-ish- but I hate it and I should get up earlier
U - Unknown fact about me: I buy twenty million different eyeshadows and they almost all look the same- lame I know but everyone knows everything about me
V - Vegetable you Hate: Brussel Sprouts
W - Worst Habit: Procrastination- why can't I just do stuff when I have the time?
X - X-rays you've had: None of your business. Just playing. Not many.
Y - Yummy Food: Sushi and more sushi (yay octopus and yellow tail)
Z - Zodiac Sign: Apparently I am a fiery Aries (who knows if I am fiery)

You know you want to answer the abc survey

Labor Day weekend is good for the soul. I got a chance to do some fun things as opposed to the busy not nearly as fun other stuff I usually do. So to whoever decided that we got a Monday off, I salute you!

Here are some confessions of Labor day weekend:

1. I got Garland's table done in time for her cross country trip back to Northwestern

10. I have also discovered that I would like to live in Los Angeles so I can be closer to my friends

My boss took pity on me yesterday (apparently, I looked tired as hell) and told me to take today off. I love it when bosses are cool- lol. So I am happy: because I finally got my internet to work (but on a bad note- I think I have a virus on my poor Dell- ewww), I have the day off, I can finish Garland's table, and I have a million things that I want to do. I know I can only do a few but I really wish today was doubled in hours. So here are the things that I am itching to do today:

1. I want to get Bob Marley, Jimi Hendrix and other interesting prints for my room

But most of all I want today to last forever..... Dang, its already 11:20