Panoramic View- Look I Make it All Manageable...

So I wrote a relatively long blog last night- but apparently it got lost in the depths of nowhere- Sad. But I am going to try to recreate it now. It may be more concise the second time around.

First of all I would really like to thank all of you who posted warm and encouraging comments on my last blog. I was really worried about it and was tempted to take it off after I had written it- but like I said, I am tired of hiding that part of who I am. So thank you for making this crazy time easier and more rewarding.

Its been said that people can die so that others have a chance to grow. And in my life this may be true. I have always been concerned with other people's problems. I have alWays tried to help everyone else out- but in turn I have neglected my life. I used to think that helping other people with what they had to do was my sole purpose. I believed that fixing others problems was the only thing that I was good at. I have learned a lot this year about people and more importantly, myself. I am grateful for my dad- not because he has died- but because through the sorrow that I feel I have begun to grow. I am a lot like my Dad in a way. He too was always trying to help others. When I said in his euology that he would have done anything to help someone- it was very true. But in the process of helping everyone, you can start to forget about who you are and your dreams. I fear that this was the case with my dad. He tried so hard for everyone else that he forgot to try for himself. He was just so tired of trying to hold everyone up that he needed his rest- thats the way I look at it at least. So when I say Rest in Peace, Dad, I really mean it. Get that rest that eluded you here on earth.

But realizing what happened to my Dad, has given me a chance at life that he never had. I can see now that I have other purposes besides being the glue that hold everyone together. I am my own person- who will not just dream, but take a chance and try to make those dreams come true. I am growing you see. As each day passes I get stronger and I look up in the sky, say a little prayer and jump- cause thats the only way things are going to happen. I am a better fighter now- you allowed me to be, Dad. And for that I will be eternally grateful.....

So as not to leave you with a sad feeling- (sorry my blogs have been emotional lately), I am going to leave you with what I am feeling for this weekend- Thank God its Friday.

- Barbershop 2- Cedric the Entertainer- enough said!
- Goodwill stores that are waiting for me to find treasure in
- Hanging out with my cousin Meghan- hopefully we can see Anchorman
- Going to see Anchorman
- Shabu Shabu with mi abuela
- The new Ozomatli Cd that I hope to accquire this weekend
- The new Streets Cd- that with any luck I will get when I get Ozomatli
- Listening to Gift of Gab and wishing that I could have a laidback conversation over some chai tea with him
- Catching up on some much needed sleep