Ain't Nothin Wrong, Ain't Nothing Right- But Still I Sit and Lie Awake at Night...
I am used to being different. I have always reveled in being a little different, a little strange, a little sarcastic (okay a lot). I have always been aware that I am a minority first and foremost and then a girl. So yeah I am a double minority- but in actuality I am a triple threat. How might you ask. I am a lesbian too. Yes, I have finally said it and to tell you the truth I feel a lot better. I know people will have a lot of questions and I welcome it. If you need some clarification or want to talk to me about it then go ahead- write me an e-mail, call me. Do what you got to do- I just did and I feel 10 times better.
I was nervous at the thought of writing this blog- but as I continue to type, I feel a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Cheesy I know- but it is true. I have kept that inside for quite awhile and to be honest, I was tired of not talking about it. I am tired of living a lie. And now that I have said it- I feel like I can move on now. I can continue with my dreams of having a boutique and of doing my art and I can finally be free.
Having a secret life can take a toll on your mental stability. I am so tired of worrying what everyone is going to say. I don't want people to look at me any differently than they already do. Because frankly I am a little weird. I want a monster truck, I love music, I always get lost (even to my own house), I can't stop making smart alecky comments to save my life.... and yes I am gay. But I guess that is all part of being me. And if people don't like me then there isn't anything I am willing to do to change myself. However, I will try to be less critical. I am trying to do that at least....
Hey Jackie,
Girl, you know I will always love you (see, I'm cheesier)
and if anyone dare say anything bad about this, I will kick their ass (I look little but I can you know :)
Yeah those 3 strikes are hard to take on huh? I feel you because I'm at two (minority & female). I agree with Moe in saying it in cheesy farts that I will always love you and be there for you regardless of what anyone says. It takes a lot of courage to come out and stop hiding. Ok, I need to stop because this is a comment I'm writing not an email. ;9
Hola Miss Jacklyn
Don't ever worry about other people -LIVE YOUR LIFE
not what other people lives our. Jacklyn i'm 43 now and i'm barely gonna start to live,but with somebody i want to spend my life with (ANGIE).So your a hell of alot smarter than me- because you have realized this sooner in life than i did. Please live your life to the fullest then you can and never stop !!!!! And exspecialy
with whom you want !!
FREEDOM OF CHOICE
love ya
YOUR UNCLE RON
Hey Jackie,
I also want to say that it did take a lot of courage and I agree with your Uncle Ron- forget the other people!
Oh and I'll go find my blue snakeskin shoes and transform into *Snakeskin Htwe* (if you don't get it, don't ask ;) anytime you need me to kick ass, ok?
I thank GOD for people like you. You give the weak links streaght to speak up. I'm glad we have a lot in common. I'm mexican. Born a woman.Get lost even when I have directions and someone on the phone helping me get to where i need to be. I like Monster trucks too. I'm wired in many ways (ask Ron). Gay or not I still think your way cool, very smart, witty and i love you because you've Jackie-period.
I have always enjoyed your sarcastic comments. I laugh my ass off just thinking about some of them right now (rosarito trip).
I look forward to reading them in your blog.
Your blog's are addicting.
I still need your help to fix that stupid candy bowl of Ron's. Let me know if you want to. Guess what even if you don't want to PLEASE HELP ME-PLEASE. Ron is also saying please but he is not here right now.
ok you better write a blog for today or tomorrow. i wish you would write every day.
angie
Labels just are - no one chooses who they love or why. It just happens. You are a beautiful and gifted person filled with promise and creativity. This creativity is probably why you feel so deeply too. Life will be wonderful as long as you remain true to yourself. I am so proud of you and impressed by you. I thank God for you every day and am blessed every day to be your mother. Love you forever, love you for always, as long as you're living, my baby you'll be. Mom
Sister-
I'm so happy for you that you finally got that off your chest. I only wish I'd known sooner so I that could've lent my support to you this whole time. You are a wonderful person who I love dearly, and I am so lucky to call you my sister. I'll call you soon to talk in person.
Oh, and I'll stand by your side till the end to fight Bush and anyone else who likes to keep this country segregated by race, gender, or sexual orientation. It's about time that everyone in America is treated similarly.
-MLW