May 2004 Archives

So its a nice long weekend- and I feel like I needed it. I have been really busy lately. But I guess I wouldn't have it any other way. I hardly ever sleep in- but I slept through my usual Jazz rousing and didn't wake up until 12:30pm. So- no complaining here. I stretch...Yawning... Its gonna be a nice day- a kinda organize my life day. My cousin used to say that she needed to oraganize her life all the time and I always thought she was a little crazy (but in a good way)- but now I get it. Someone needs to come over here and organize my mess of a room- I 'm tired of looking at it. But I might just go out to the back room and paint. PAINT- yay... Oh alright I'll clean my crap first.

But I'l leave you with a little Blackalicious- Oh and speaking of Blackalicious- go cop The Gift of Gab's solo venture. Highly worth it- its like having a conversation with Gift himself.

Make You Feel That Way- Blackalicious-(Blazing Arrow)

Make you feel that way

[You know, it's like, the most greatest feeling you could ever feel,
you like just total elation. You know, sunny day... just got paid... (laughing)
You know, it's just like you know just the most joyous feeling
you could ever comprehend. You know, chilling with your family.
You know just you know just really really feeling,
feeling the moment, with the folks. You know really really really just chilling.
It's love...]

So little Moe Moe graduated from Berkeley on Friday. Sniff..tear... No, for reals I am really proud of her- she overcame a lot of obstacles during her years at Berkeley. I was only too happy to go and celebrate with her along with our friend Kin and Moe Moe's very cute parents.

We all had a really good time. Asia SF was the best though. For those of you who haven't been- you need to run to San Francisco- yes, do it- quickly! These drag queens are tight performers and their food is really good too.

I also got a chance to peruse Haight Street. I missed Amoeba and True , Planetweavers and all the funky shoe stores. Sigh... I wish I could go there once a week. But then again, I would never have any money- or change for that matter. I used to look for change in the couch so that I could buy a used CD- hows that for an addiction. I just figured it was cool- cause you can't clean you room (study, paint, breathe, live... without a new CD).

So I raise my glass to Moe Moe- you did it girl!

Remember when Ice Cube had a good day and the Lakers beat the Supersonics and when the dream team was on top of the world. I miss those days. I miss having all the older players like Charles Barkley, Shawn Kemp, Michael Jordan, Magic Johnson, Scottie Pippen, Dennis Rodman etc. They were invincible. I remember that I always had a fascination with Sir Charles- he just seemed like he could smash everyone. Plus, he had those deodarant commercials- they were kinda funny. Don't get me wrong, I still like basketball- I am just not as inspired by it as I used to be. But that's all on me. I have grown up and realized that I am more of a music fan than a sports fan. My sister however, is an avid sports fan. And I love that she loves basketball- I mean the girl still listens to Basketball Jones. She embodies that same kind of stregnth that players used to have.

Now- I'm not hating on basketball nowadays- cause I think I almost gave my dog a heart attack when Fisher made that shot with only 4/10th of a second to go cause I screamed so loud. I just think that there are so many more distractions out there now. But if anyone can win with ten thousand obstacles and distractions it has to be the mighty Lakers. So here's to the Lakers- you know they are gonna bring the victory on home.

My horoscope has been very supportive and uplifting for a month now. Who knew Yahoo could predict the way my life would go? I'm not really sure if I believe in all of this horoscope mess but I'll take all the help I can get. Take a look at today's horoscope:

You're going a million miles an hour. Don't stop now. Action leads to discovery

Once again your fire burns hot and bright. You'll do anything on a dare, and you look good doing it. If you're a little scared but still do the right thing, you can go beyond just boldness into true bravery.

Lately, I haven't been able to get any work done because I am constantly being distracted by all of my ideas. Everytime I have an idea that I really like I write it down in one of my various notebooks (yeah I have about 10) and then I have another and another until I am innundated with ideas. Needless to say, I haven't finished anthing new in a couple of weeks- but I have done quite a few sketches. AHHH...heres to getting my crap done!!! But then again it may be my horoscope's fault... making me burn a million miles an hour.

On a good note Moe Moe has finised her last final!! Yeah Moe!!! I knew you could do it. You are so smart and talented. Can't wait to see you graduate on Friday!!! And good luck packing- its gonna take a lot of work (Moe Moe leaves a trail of mess wherever she goes- kinda like Pig Pen) :)

Usually I feel like I don't have enough things to blog about- but today I think I could write forever- possibly because I am a little hyper today. Must be last night's sushi. I went to Chomp yesterday with my family and they have a huge fiberglass shark attached to the ceiling. This is not your ordinary fake looking shark- its a fake looking shark that has flames airbrushed on it. Who doesn't like a shark with flames on it? I have another important question- Who wants to get me that shark? I can't think of any special occasions that you could say it was for- but whoever gets me that shark will be my hero (Ferris Bueller- you're my hero). I told you I was a little hyper.

Something else that has been weighing heavily on my mind is the Bjork song- Hyper-Ballad. The lyrics make me laugh cause they are so random and weird. But thats why we love Bjork, that and her swan dress. There is this one part of the song where she wonders what her body would sound like, slamming on the rocks below- classic. So I leave you with those lyrics.

Hyper-Ballad

It's real early morning
No-one is awake
I'm back at my cliff
Still throwing things off
I listen to the sounds they make
On their way down
I follow with my eyes 'til they crash
Imagine what my body would sound like
Slamming against those rocks
When it lands
Will my eyes
Be closed or open?

Sick, yeah?

Since I have been trying to channel more positvie energy in to my life, I have had some very nice, smile-when-you-wake-up dreams. No, they aren't continuations of my Andre 3000 dreams(although, I wouldn't mind that). They are of me and my friends opening up an anti-mall like the LAB in Costa Mesa.

Except my anti-mall would be based on hip-hop (did you think I wouldn't bring up the hip hop) and would include a big store featuring the Moe Y Yo collection, a very good record store, a book store, a min-spa, two restaurants(sushi/vegetarian and Mediterranean), a dance(yoga) studio, a coffee shop/laundry mat, my sister's vintage sports attire store, and a tattoo and piercing shop. Big dream I know. But I would love to make it happen. So, No.1- Win the Lotto, No. 2- Work with people to bring the dopest mall around. Now where would I put it..... Possibly Santa Monica...

Please, let me win the lotto!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OR maybe you guys know someone who wants to invest in this mess...

Mother's Day always creeps up on me. It pops out and yells "Surprise" before I am ever ready. I always feel like I need the whole week to prepare- but I am always a step behind, doing things that should have been done weeks ago. So, yeah I am procrastinator by nature. But when it comes to presents I am a perfectionist as well. The combination of always being late and wanting everything to go the way I see it in my head definitely clashes every time. You would think that I would get t by now. How many times have I done this. I am not an amateur- but yet my problem prevails.

The point is I can not do anything for my moms that would tell her exactly how I feel. I hate being mushy so I never buy those overly flower filled cards. So my sister and I chose a simple gift for my mom this year. We picked out a silver key chain that we engraved with the phrase "We Love Momma." It fit our sense of humor and it fits my mom. I wish I could tell her that every day. So hopefully now she can see that we love her at least everytime she gets in the car.

Yesterday while I was running around and picking up Jazz and Bella at my grandma's house- I finally received Talib Kweli's- The Beautiful Mix CD. You know you have to test out a CD by playing it so loud that you can feel the bass in your heart, this time it was definitely worth the irregular heart beat.

I think that I may have already played out track #12. Number 12 is called Lonely People- and for those of you who are Beatles fans- the hook is from Eleanor Rigby. Besides the fact that I love The Beatles- this song is a masterpiece of violins and poignant lyrics (cause seriously I would like to know where all the lonely people do come from).
So to Talib - I Salute You. At last someone deserving and with enough respect has sampled a Beatles hit without butchering its musical genius.

I can remember always listening to The Beatles growing up. My dad was an avid fan and we would sing together- dang, we would listen to them doing yardwork, cleaning the house, cooking dinner, and on Sunday mornings. If I didn't understand where The Beatles were coming from I could always ask him. He was always a wealth of musical knowledge. I got my love of music from him-we would discuss music and theories surrounding the different influences people had and how that effects their musical output.
So in honor of my dad and The Beatles here are some other Beatles hooks that would be worth using (for all you Beatles and hip hop fans):

1. She's Leaving Home
2. I'm Looking Through You
3. Girl
4. From Me to You
5. Let It Be
6. Hey Jude
7. Rocky Racoon
8. Yellow Submarine
9. My Love Don't Give me Presents
10. Lady Madonna

So I was gonna let this slip. I was going to forget that I saw this movie. Not because I didn't like it but because who knew I would. I'm not usually a sucker for a romantic comedy. I favor independent or thought provoking or even crazy violent films. So when my sister told me to watch Love Actually- I was like Yeah Uh-huh. Meaning yeah I'll watch it later, later - not right now right now. But what can I say- I was inspired by this movie. I felt like the Grinch that stole Christmas- my heart grew three sizes by the time the movie was over. Kinda funny- since I am the always the sarcastic and forthright girl. I mean I am really emotional- I'll admit it. I cry every time I see the Lion King and I cried in the Green Mile like a mother (I think I cry at the movies more than I do in real life.)

But a romantic comedy- uhhh. The reson that this movie worked is the comedy was light and so was the romance- it wasn't overedone. I was actually happy at the end- I didn't feel the need to throw up once. Interesting I know... Maybe I am going soft in my old age (all of my twenty-three years).

Oh, so I told you that I would tell you the second phase of my health kick. Funny, I forgot what I had planned to do. I swear I have "senior moments" or maybe I really do have ADD like my moms says I do. Anywayz, when I figure it out- I'll let you know. In light of all of the things that have happened to me last year and this year- I simply feel the need to cleanse my self of all negativity- which may be hard because I carry a lot of that negativity as a force field that shields me from vulnerablity. I guess- I just feel the need to be- its as simple as that. So here I am just trying to BE!

I NEED A CHANGE!

I am so tired of eating meat. I need more energy and lately meat has been looking a little crazy. I think I am starting to hate it. Last year, I went through the Lent season sans carne- and it wasn't as bad as I had feared. I thought I would be dragging myself to Carl's Jr. like a dehydrated person in a waterless desert. See I am coming from tamales, menudo and tacos. But I was cool. You just have to be a little creative. That is what I plan to do. I feel the need to detoxify my life both spiritually and mentally (not in a crazy extreme way- I just want to be at peace with myself). Going vegetarian is just one of the tools that I plan to implement. Last year I got inspired by dead prez and you know it ended as soon as Easter rolled around. 40 days and then poof, I was chowing on the meat again. It actually felt foreign yet I remembered how good it was. Plus, the Atkins diet will send any meat lover to the otherside- (just the sight of a crazy invention that Carl's Jr. calls the breakfast bowl is enough for me to never want to see meat again).

So this time I vow to make it last, which means that I will be reading up on this mess. But there's a catch: I am going to continue eating fish. What would I do without SUSHI!!!! Ha- I could never give that up. For all you people who have slept on dead prez, I suggest you go out and and buy one of their CDs. I personally like them all but try Lets Get Free- it will inspire healthy thoughts.

Be Healthy- dead prez
I don't eat no meat
No dairy, No sweets
Only rice, vegetables
Fresh fruit and whole wheat

I'll let you know phase #2- tommorow
Peace

The right song can get you into a mood where you can accomplish anything. I mean Rocky anhililated the guy from Russia, even though the fool was pumped full of steriods. All Rocky had to do was believe in himself and then listen to the Eye of the Tiger song. Look at Ralph Macchio- he could eventually break sheets of ice with his hand just by concentrating. Ha, if Mr. Miyagi could get Daniel-san to do that then I think I could leap tall building in a single bound. Or maybe not. But the point is Daniel-san believed and rocked out to "You're the best around.. No one's ever gonna get you down" and then he went on to win anything he competed in. I wish life was that easy. I would love to pick out a song- focus on an incredibly hard feat and excel because I have the heart and a good soundtrack. The good news is I am all heart- the bad news is- Life is not a movie. But lets pretend that it is. So since life is a movie, then my theme song is: The Life- Mystic. Marinate on that for a minute.....

The Life
this is for warm days that will drift away while the sun sets and the ghettos play
long nights on a hot summer's block where you sip your brew
this is for eyes that cry like yours and learn to smile again rise above the pain
this is for and your crew
the ones that true, who will always love you no matter what you do

Cuz it's the Life the life the life

This is for soldiers who bust they guns in the name of freedom not the name of funds
True queens who raise they kids, implement the knowledge, show em how to live
This is for those who stand in line to feed their babies while they're running out of time
This is for the injustice, behind bars
Our lover, our leaders, our people

don't let them mis misguide you
they'll have you acting like the sun ain't ever shine and the sky ain't never blue
but you know and I know that its all about survival
the struggle of our people is like that unriveled
f@#$ politicians they was never in control
its deeper than that, s true battle for the soul
watch out, what they want is to bring us to our knees
so my people guard your life by any means

this is for those who know that we all gonna die it was set up that way by an infinite power
those who know the feel of chains in the belly of the beast and the mental strain
this is for those who have their own fallen angels trying to find their way home
this is for everybody and anybody
it;s your life