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You're Only Scared To Die, When You Ain't Living Right...

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sometimes its all I can do
to drive past your off-ramp
and not go to your room
and put on your clothes
that are scratchy with concrete bits
and lace up your weathered concrete covered boots
that i know won't fit

and then flop on the floor
watching the construction dust
settle on my heart as I breathe it in deeply

wishing you were on a job
or fixing the alignment
or at the store
cause someone said just get me one thing

some days its all i can do
not to will myself to die
they say death waits in the shadows
but i've checked those shadows
and i can't find death

dammit, where is it when i need it
cause where most fear meeting their end
i only wish it came sooner
i'd look death in the eye
greet it like a lost friend

i've been waiting
i'll say
i'll run ahead
and run towards you
and leap out
and tackle you
and you'll laugh

but until then
know that i am
waiting in your room
picking chunks of concrete off
your faded shirt
and trying to fit my big feet in
your smaller boots
watching the dust settle

Posted by jackie at April 15, 2005 10:15 PM