And in the day, everything is complex, there's nothing simple, when I'm not around you

Sometimes I amaze myself, when I hear myself talk - when I see myself handling presentations and discussions. This is because I've always held the student role, the learning role and I've always been quiet or told that I should be quiet because I was usually wrong or that I was not capable of handling such things.

Recently I was heading a meeting and I thought, Oh my gosh, this comes naturally to me because I know my shit. I KNOW my shit!

This isn't a "I'm so great, you need to congratualate me" blog post. This is a "Among all the adversaries and mountains I've had to face in my job and life in this chapter, so far, I've actually learned something and that someone who keeps telling me I'm crap, is actually wrong" blog post.

I realise that there will always be people who see me as crap (not everyone can see how wonderful I am, HAHAHAHA) - and that I cannot take it personally. I tend to take these things personally because, well, this is something that I heard alot growing up. But then, now that I've spent a quarter of a century here on earth, I think that I'm able to start slowly letting go of the "I'm crap" feeling.

I think I can finally be at the stage where - "Hey, I'm alright" feeling.

A chapter of my life will end very soon and even though I disliked that chapter, I think that it's still an important and valuable chapter, one where I will look upon with "tsk, tsk, tsk" and "Awwwww, it's alright" mentality.

So, I hope everyone is doing alright on this Hump Day.