De ja Vu

Sometimes, it feels like someone is running electric currents through my body.
Sometimes, it feels like someone is poking me with hot iron rods.
Sometimes, it feels like sitting on pin cushions, upside down.
Sometimes, it's like someone just keeps pushing those points on your body and won't let go.
Sometimes, I'm just as stiff as a wall.
Sometimes, it feels like de ja vu constantly because you can't remember if you've told someone what you were going to tell them so you repeat it anyway.
Sometimes, it feels like an out of the body experience, coz you can't believe it's happening to you.
Sometimes, you think it's your fault.
Sometimes, you know it's not.
Sometimes, you think, it's going to be a good day and you count the hours for it.
and sometimes, that doesn't happen.
Sometimes, you almost get used to the throbbing, discomforting, hot, prodding pain as being part of you...

Then you remember, there are kids starving in other parts of the world and that Life is suffering and that this too shall pass and you roll over in your bed and try to find a comfortable spot and double your dosage of sleep aid so your eye lids will shut. No gurantees your mind will rest.

And you think, maybe there'll be a window of time tomorrow when you will be NORMAL.