So, I have a dilemma tonight.

What do you do when you see celebrities that you actually like?

And I don't just mean like as in , oh my god, i love him/her so much.

How about the ones whom you think are real, whom you think could be your friend if they were normal people and you met them in college.

In my field, I meet celebs all the time and I'm torn between my professional demeanor where I smile and I nod at the most or introduce myself and pass on my business card to them to------ going full on gush mode where I want to reiterate to them every scene that they rocked in the movie I watched last night.

And I have yet to gush- maybe I did once a little bit but then I already know that person kinda well...

Anyway, my dilemma again, is, so what if i tell them i love so and so and such and such? they must get hasseled like that often, so why would it make a difference that I do that?

Perhaps, I'm not fierce enough and perhaps I should assert myself more. But I always think: "won't they think I'm just another one who tried to get their 15 minutes of fame by talking to them? "

ANd I think I should put myself out there more and introduce myself but it's hard. I see an actor I have a crush on and I freeze. He looks absolutely normal, harmless and I freeze. I guess my plan to marry a rich actor who is about to retire is never going to happen at this rate. lol
(example: I saw Paul Rudd tonight and I love him and I could not stop to talk to him. I'm such a chicken shit. )

and I also just witnessed another celebrity couple who just broke up get in a slight argument tonight, as I'm trying to pass them to go inside a VIP room.
I felt like I was intruding and I tried to leave but I was crushed in by bodyguards and nosey people trying to listen in.

But that is what I would have done if another couple was in an argument. Iwould have left, tried to give them privacy... .. but I guess to alot of ppl, their status makes them think it's ok for them to listen in.

All I know is that I need to make more conenctions, so I do need to go ahead and introduce myself and try to make conversation. Maybe I'll try to be the realest Publicist in tinseltown.

Yeah, I'm rambling on.. it's past midnight - way past this old lady's bed time.